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Post by Kate Payne on Nov 24, 2007 18:58:20 GMT -5
how long have I been here? Kate asked watching him her eyes opened some more as they began to lose their heaviness. Kate again tried to sit herself up, her arms were weak but after taking it slowly Kate finally sat herself up.
Kate winced as her chest hurt from the bolt wound Ahhh. Kate groaned through tightened jaws.
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Post by Hannibal Casry on Nov 24, 2007 19:55:53 GMT -5
"Quite some time... A month and some odd days." he said not exactly for sure on how long she'd been here. Some days he was totally out of it, but came to see her anyway. "Be careful..." Hannibal said quietly as she eased herself into a sitting position and groaned as the pain in her chest swept over her. He looked at her for a long while before he said anything. "I'm so glad you finally woke up... I was starting to feel like you weren't ever going to come back." Hannibal said quietly. |
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Post by Kate Payne on Nov 24, 2007 20:15:23 GMT -5
Kate looked at Hannibal with a shocked look on her face what? Kate paused How bad was I hurt? Kate’s wound was closed but not healed all the way.
Kate outlined the details in Hannibal’s face noting that his eyes had dark circles under them. You haven’t stopped have you? Kate’s voice sounded hurt but it was not from the pain in her chest it was from the fact that one of the last things she heard Hannibal say was that he picked up smoking pot while she was gone and by the way he looked now she could tell that he was still smoking it. Kate locked eyes with Hannibal I also saw that… Kate looked down at his wrist. I saw it the day that you almost lost me while I hugged you.
Kate waited a minute after Hannibal answered her then she said I’m sorry I made you do that. even though Hannibal never said that Kate got the feeling that he did that to get his mind off her.
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Post by Hannibal Casry on Nov 24, 2007 21:11:40 GMT -5
"You were hurt really bad. The bullet just barley missed your heart... The doctor said that if I wouldn't have been there to put pressure on the wound, you might not have made it as long as you did..." he said as he looked over at her.
"I tried to stop... I really did..." he said with a heavy sigh as he looked away from her. She sounded hurt, and he knew it wasn't because of her chest this time. He'd told her about him taking up pot, and he'd told her he was trying to stop, but then here he was, back on it and she could tell with ease. He swallowed hard as she knew of his wrists too. He pulled his sleeves down over his fingers and didn't look back up at her. He fell apart when she was gone, and just as he was getting better, he fell apart while she was here dying in the hospital.
"Don't say that..." he said, finally looking back up at her. His tones were firm, as if he were scolding her for saying such a thing. "Don't think that you made me do anything..." his tones quieted down as he spoke this time, and they dropped to just above a whisper. She didn't make him do anything and he couldn’t let her think that. It was out of his own self pity that he started this. He needed something, and he chose two things that were horrible. He could have taken up a sport or something but he hung out with the wrong people. |
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Post by Kate Payne on Nov 24, 2007 21:22:36 GMT -5
Kate watched Hannibal as he spoke and when he finished kate did not wait to say anything she spoke just as firmly as Hannibal did No but you started because I left though. Kate looked away from him as she moved her sore legs to make sure she could still moved them
After a few minutes Kate moved the blankets off her and moved to the edge of the bed her feet were a good foot off the ground she was not going to say here and wait to heal no matter how bad she was hurt. Kate Tried stepping down but her legs felt like jello which made it extremely hard to even try and get off the bed.
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Post by Hannibal Casry on Nov 24, 2007 21:37:28 GMT -5
He knew she wouldn't like him for this, but as she tried to step out of the bed, he carefully picked up her legs and put her back on the bed. "You just woke up from a coma. You can't leave here yet..." his tone was firm as he looked at her. "Please... I want you to get better. I've been through hell ands back trying to keep my spirits up so I could see the day you woke up. So many times I lost hope, but I still came back the next day..." Hannibal spoke softly, but still firmly as he looked at her. "I've been talking to silence for a long time now. If you choose to do anything, think about what I've been through for you." he said quietly. He wasn't referring the drugs and cutting either, that was of his own choice because he'd hung out with bad people and he didn't think clearly about his options to help himself. He was referring to all the agony and all the worry he's felt for her. All the times that he doubted her, but still waited for a letter, or still came back and talked for hours to what seemed like nothing. He has fallen apart many times, and yet he still comes back to her. |
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Post by Kate Payne on Nov 24, 2007 22:00:29 GMT -5
Kate gave him a dirty look as he put her legs back on the bed and told her she couldn’t leave yet. Then She looked away as if she wasn’t listening to him but she heard every word he said. Her eyes wanted to tear up as he told her what he’d been through but kate was stubborn and wasn’t about to let Hannibal see her cry this time, so Kate reached up to her bolt would to feel the starting of what would be a scar right next to her heart. An unexpected pain shot through Kate’s whole chest and her tear was forced out by accident. As her other hand gripped the sheet to keep her from screaming from the pain. Kate was not going to try that again.
A doctor walked in and stopped suddenly as she seen that Kate was Wake a big smile crossed her face and she said happily Welcome back to the living she changed the I.V. bag one last time and then turned toward both Kate and Hannibal. the hospital Manger as noticed that you come in here every day and stay the whole visiting hours with her and He told me that you could stay the night with her now that you are the only primary visitor which right now gives you that right seeming no blood relatives have come to see her. She smiled once more then walked back out of the room.
Kate looked up at Hannibal has she walked out.
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Post by Hannibal Casry on Nov 24, 2007 22:11:03 GMT -5
"Thanks ma'am." Hannibal spoke in quiet tones as the doctor left. He then looked back at Kate as she looked over at him. "What? Did you not believe that I was in here every day? You had to hear it from someone else?" he asked wonderingly, not understanding what that look was for. He'd been here almost every day, for almost ever day she was in here. The doctor had even questioned him a few times when he'd been sick, or he'd be suffering from trying to quit his addiction. She'd ask if he wanted to go home in a cab that they could call or something and he still refused. He stayed with her as long as he could and what was she going to do? She was going to leave after just waking up... |
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Post by Kate Payne on Nov 24, 2007 22:29:48 GMT -5
Kate gave him another dirty look as he asked her if she really needed to hear it from somebody else. What?! No what I can not believe is that I just heard you say that. This time Kate was really hurt that he would question that she didn’t believe him.
Again Kate moved to the edge of the bed watching Hannibal and again her feet hung a good foot above the foot.
And to think I love someone who would doubt me. Kate said more to herself than Hannibal. She couldn’t help but let her eyes fill with tears. Kate looked away from Hannibal as she gripped the bed side.
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Post by Hannibal Casry on Nov 24, 2007 22:47:58 GMT -5
Hannibal looked at her for a second, and watched as she situated herself at the side of the bed. She was still a good foot above the ground, and he really didn't want to find out how she would handle a step like that since she hadn't moved from her spot on that bed in so long. He clenched his teeth together as he heard her two comments. He couldn’t say he hadn't meant it like that, because he did, but he hadn't known what that look was for so he assumed what she had meant by it. He can't be blamed too badly. She looked over at him just as the doctor explained that and anyone could have messed up there...
But of course... he was blamed for the mess up since he'd been the one to accuse her and not simply just ask her what that look had been for. If he would have shut his mouth then it would have ended on a better note that it just had. "Sorry." he mumbled softly, feeling stupid. He laced his fingers together and pulled at his sleeves again as they fell back into place. He could never find any shirts with long enough arms on them. He wanted sleeves that went down to his hands so he wouldn’t have to stretch them. |
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Post by Kate Payne on Nov 24, 2007 23:03:13 GMT -5
Kate didn’t look back at him and she acted as if she did not listen to him. She could no longer keep her tears from falling so she kept her down away from Hannibal’s gaze, if he was watching her. Kate tried to hold in a sob to try and save herself some more pain, but it was no use the sob came out more like a teared up painful gasp.
The though of what Hannibal said ran through her mind I tried to stop... I really did... Don't say that... Don't think that you made me do anything... You can't leave here yet... Please... I want you to get better. I've been through hell ands back trying to keep my spirits up so I could see the day you woke up. So many times I lost hope, but I still came back the next day... I've been talking to silence for a long time now. If you choose to do anything, think about what I've been through for you. What? Did you not believe that I was in here every day? You had to hear it from someone else? Sorry. as all of these things ran through Kate’s mind it began to get harder for her to stop crying.
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Post by Hannibal Casry on Nov 24, 2007 23:30:27 GMT -5
Hannibal had been trying to calm himself, but the need to smoke again was driving him insane. He kept messing with his hands and he couldn’t get his sleeves to stay down. Yeah he knew that she knew that he had started cutting, but it bothered him to see the cuts. Most of them were still cuts and not yet scars. They hadn't hurt all that bad, but seeing his blood reminded him of things. He looked up as he heard her gasp and looked up from his fidgeting hands. "Kate...?" he asked softly, knowing she probably didn't want to hear anything from him after how he'd been, but he spoke up anyway and looked at her. He felt bad for being so stupid, but he couldn't take it back now, and if he blamed it on something he'd only seem as if he was afraid to own up to his mistakes. "Are you alright? I'm sorry I accused you. I know that apology doesn't mean much because it's a little late... but I jumped to a dumb conclusion..." he said quietly, his face taking on a bit of a pinkish tone as he admitted to being wrong. He'd been too quick to jump and he'd accused her. |
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Post by Kate Payne on Nov 24, 2007 23:58:58 GMT -5
Kate didn’t look toward him as he said her name said. Kate only wiped her eyes with one hand as she used her other to try and stand up. Before kate could even let go of the sheet her legs gave away as she put weight on them and she fell to the floor ripping the I.V. cord from her hand. Kate’s Hands weren’t strong enough yet to help her stop the fall. The sheet from the bed was pulled half way off because kate hadn’t let go until she was already on the ground.
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Post by rebellious not tired hannibal on Nov 25, 2007 0:22:35 GMT -5
He'd been waiting for an answer, and it wasn't like he was not paying attention to her as she fell, it was just that she fell all at once. Kate had tried to get out of bed, but after not moving her legs for so long, they were weak and weren't able to support her weight. Hannibal shied as the needles were pulled out of her arm and hung there loosely, but none the less rushed over to her side. "Are you alright Kate?" he asked as he pulled the blanket off of her and tried to help her back up. He hit the help button to call for a nurse or a doctor so they could get the IVs back in her arm. He didn't like needles and didn't know what went where she he didn't want to even touch them. He might mess something up. |
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Post by Kate Payne on Nov 25, 2007 0:42:19 GMT -5
I want to go home, Hannibal. Kate said locking eyes with him. I swear, if you take me home I’ll stay in bed until I’m healed all the way. Kate held onto Hannibal’s shoulder as he helped her get up.
Please Hannibal. Kate said in a pleading but not begging tone.
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