This Silence is Deafening;; - - [ZOEY]

[Hannibal Casry]

Chad got his clothes on and was careful not to stretch too much. His body was sore, and he was tired of being forced to lay down this whole week. He wanted to get up and run a marathon, but he knew that wasn't going to happen any time soon. The cuts on his back and chest were healing still, and they were going to leave some nasty scars. He had a total of 87 stitches to close up his wounds. They asked what happened, but he acted as though he couldn't remember. He didn't want to say anything about it because they'd probably think he was crazy. The male's cell phone was on silent, that was the only reason he didn't answer finally he remembered it and picked it up as he put his shoes on. A laugh rang from his once silent vocals. 17 missed calls, and most of them were from Becky. He loved that girl so much.

-Twenty minutes later-

He arrived with flowers and chocolates for the worried girl that had called him at least ten times. He knocked on the door, his stiff body standing tall as he watched the door open to show Ian standing there. He stepped out of the way to let Chad in. The older male observed the boy for a moment, seeing that his eyes were clear and he stood steady on his feet. He walked into the house, then up the stairs to her room and parted his lips to speak. "Becky, I would call you back but my hands are full..." he said as he stood in the door way with the roses in one hand and chocolates in the other.

Hannibal snuck up behind her as she walked out of the wash room and wrapped his arms around her lean, still very sexy body. He kissed her neck with gentle lips and parted them to speak. "Stop looking at those lines that you don't have... The more you worry the faster they show." he whispered in her ear as he still stood behind her. His tall body toward over hers, and he head to lean down a bit to whisper to her. His arms stayed firmly around her body and his teasing fingers trailed down her stomach as he waited for a reaction. Hannibal was good at being quiet when he wanted to be, and he loved sneaking up behind her, because even though she didn't like it, he always got a kiss.

[Zoey]

Becky touched the pieces of her cell phone. Yep it was offically boeken. She blew hair out of her eyes and picked i up sighing holding it in her hands. No way Chad would call her back now. She threw it out not caring. He was the only person she called anyways. Grabbing her pillow she hugged it to herself again looking out the window. Ian was bugging her. he had not said a word and every day it hurt more and more. Their seventeenth birthday was tomorrow and she wanted him to at least say a hello to her. Without more than another thought a firmiliar husky deep tone broke through her thoughts. she immediatly turned her head to see Chad standing there with chocolates and flowers saying he could not answer because his hands were full.

She jumped off her head into his arms kissing him Chad! She siad happily hugging him not caring about the gifts as much as he was there Are you better? She asked gently touching his chest not wanting to hurt him. She should ahve stayed with him instead of going home. even though she had sleapt for almost 24 hours she had missed him dreadfully. ian had not come near her and her parents were always bugging her Thanks but im more concerned over you baby...i missed you so much. she admitted and rested her head on his chest. There was a long scar visible with the shrit she wore but she was learning to get over it. She did not have a flawless body, no one ever would and she knew Chad was worse...
Nicky yelped as her husband grabbed ehr from behind. God she hated that! She looked at him frowning as he said she was not looking any older Oh Hanibal- She stopped as his hands teased up her shirt. Her toes curled but she gently pushed his hand down i am getting olc and i don't want to be... She murmered looking down. Yes she had to admit he could still get a reaction from her but she felt awful and gross today. Come here. she smield weakly pulling his neck down so she could kiss him for a minute. he still had that amazing skill and taste. Making her feel worse. Sighing, she regretfully pulled away from him and looked out there door Has Ian talked to you? She whispered looking into his eyes

[Hannibal Casry]

He laughed softly as she jumped off the bed and into his arms. He kissed her lovingly and wrapped his arms around her as she spoke again, asking if he was better. "I have to get my stitches removed in three days, but other then being sore I'm fine. Glad to be back with you again." he said gently, pressing her hand to his chest to show that it wouldn't hurt him if she touched him. Even a forceful touch didn't hurt that bad, but being as gentle as she was, she wouldn't hurt him. A small smile crossed his face as the doctor warning him of no sexual activity. He said that his body for one was too sensitive and for too he'd break the stitches if he did anything dramatic.

"I missed you too baby. More then anything in the world." he said, letting his lips grace her skin as she rested her head against his chest. Very gentle fingers traced over the scar as he held her close to him, not giving her a chance to pull away. He removed a small can from his back pocket and offered it to her. "This is something my doctor gave me to help get rid of the scars that I will surely have. He said it's not perfect, but continuous application will help them fade. It should fade that one almost completely since it's not as bad as mine will be." he said hoping she wouldn't worry about her body. She was the most beautiful thing on the face of the earth, no matter what she thought. He had plenty more of this, and he could get more whenever he ran out, so he might as well share and help her feel better about her appearance.

Smile slightly as she went to protest what he said, but she grew quiet as his fingers affected her body. He was then slightly surprised by her reaction when she pulled his hands down from her and still held the frown on her features. "Nicky... You're not old. You're going to live to be one hundred and I'm gonna be right beside you. That's old. You're only what, forty-two? I'm forty-three currently, and I will be forty-four in Apri-- Ehh god, that sounds strange. Maybe I'll be thirty-four for a second time." he said with a soft laugh. "That's beside the point. You're not old, but the more you worry about it, the faster it will show. So stop it." he said lovingly, as he saw the weak smile and she pulled him down a bit to plant her soft lips against the skin of his neck, and he sighed softly as his knees felt weak. Her touch was like a drug. He loved it.

She pulled away from him then and knew this was not good. She had something on her mind and he had a feeling that it wasn't going to be something fun. He laced his fingers with hers as he heard the question. The male looked down for a second and squeezed her hands gently. "No... He hasn't. He doesn't seem like he's been talking to anyone much lately. He eats, sleeps, runs and goes to school nowadays... That's all." the male said quietly as his dark eyes looked back up to hers. "I don't know what to do..."

Speak of the devil and he shall appear.
Ian walked down the stairs after turning off his loud music that seemed as though it never ended. The screaming vocalists screamed for hours on end in this house, and it drove Hannibal insane, but he never said anything to their son. He held a leash in his hand and a dog at his feet. Head phones were covering his ears. His thin body was hidden within the baggy sweat clothes. He looked unaffected by the fact that he'd be seventeen years old tomorrow. He went through a lot of days where he looked completely unaffected. He was just quiet and moved through the house like a ghost.

[Zoey]

She smiled in releif as he said he would only be sore. Her knees wanted to go weak at that fact and she kissed his lips gently I promise i won't hurt you. She said as his he took her hand running it along his chest. He was trying to show that she would not hurt him. Hesitance was in her vocie next I don't want you doing anything extreme.. When she said extreme she knew she was saying no sex. As muc as they both might want it he would probably rip his stiches open and she would not see him for another week. That would be hell all over again for her. A day without Chad was torture. Expecially when ehr brother refused to even show any emotion. That was a huge worry but she masked it most of the time not wanting anyone to worry about her at all...

She snapped away from her dark thoughts as he said he missed her kissing ehrneck. She smiled snuggling agaisnt his chest. If only he knew how much she missed him. Without warning his hands traced the scar on her shoulder. She tried to pull back a bit but he held her clsoe looking at them worried I don't care about it.. She murmered as he suddenly pulled a can from his pocket. Shaking her head she puhsed it backa t him No i don't care i deserve a scar. She put it back into his pocket not bein able to ressit pinching his ass quickly As long as you still love the way i look why would i change it? she grinned kissing his lips again but with a bit..ok alot..more hunger than there welcoming kiss. She had mised him alot. And the itch to jsut have her way with him was aching in her mind but she had to do waht was best for him. Pulling back with a regret ful sigh she nuzzled his nsoe nodding in thanks to the flowers and chocolate walking to her bed sitting down Im 17 tomorrow...your still two years older than me.. She put her face in her hands and looked at the floor. She wished she was eighteen. She wanted to marry Chad. But her parents would think she was much to young. Ian would probably care less.

Nicky crossed her arms loking out the window as he said she was not old and how she was going to live to be a hundred. She wanted to be young agan. Sexy and adventurous where Hannibal wanted to be with her every night. A wince was clear on her face as he said her age and she turned looking at him I want to be 22 again. She whispered walking back over to him. She still did love the reaction she got from him when she kissed him. e looked all warm and like he was going to colapse. She laced ehr fingers back with his as he talked about Ian. That boy had not talked to anyone and it was bugging her because..she kenw it was hurting Becky. Becky had been trying all week to talk to him. Her head lookied to the hall as the music stopped and Ian practiacally ran by with Lucky. Sighing she sat down on the bed pulling him with her He is seventeen tomorrow....is he even our son anymore? I miss my baby boy. She whispered. She had decided she was not going to cry in front of Hannibal anyore so she jsut hid her hace in his chest. If only he would talk to anyone...

[Hannibal Casry]

"I know you won't hurt me, and I would never hurt you..." he said quietly, the words leaving his lips with a small smile. He was true when he spoke. He would never hurt her, not even if his life depended on it. A soft chuckle passed his lips and a smirk stretched across his features. "I know... I have already been wanred of such things." he said quietly, the smirk remaining stretched across his features. As much as he loved to please Becky when it came to sex, he didn't want to go back to the hospital for breaking his stitches. He coudln't handle being away from her for that long of a time period again. It would drive him up the wall and over the edge.

He smiled slightly as she leaned into his chest and stayed close. She tried to pull away from him, which was as expected. He held her close and his hand was pushed away to put the can back in his pocket. A grin stretched across his features as she couldn't keep her hands off of him. He didn't mind the hands on him though. He loved her more then anything. "I just wanted you to be comfortable. Just because I love every little thing about you doesn't mean you do..." he said quietly as he let his fingers trail down her flat stomach. Her lips met his with a hungry kiss and it brought out those feelings of want within him. He knew he coudln't though. He didn't want to break his stitches. That would be the worst thing possible. He'd even let her have total control of him in this very moment, but she pulled back then, ripping his mind from the thoughts. Three days... he thought as she nuzzled him. He walked over, very carefully, and set himself down beside her. "It's alright. Just because I'm older doesn't mean I love you any less." he said as he pulled out a small box. "Take this as a promise to say I won't ever leave you or love you any less. Soon the day will come, I promise." he said as he set the box on her leg. The red velvet with a golden bow on top rested there with little movement.

He'd have her every night if it was possible, but frankly it wasn't. Everything that went on with their children too kthe want right out of Hannibal. Yes, whenever he was around her those feeling rose within them, but it was random when both of them felt the lust in the same moment. Between his leg and their problems, neither really felt that want at the same time, and it wouldn't be good if one wanted it and the other didn't. "Don't we all...?" he asked with a small smile. She could always get that reaction from him, for her touch and her kiss made him weak. He didn't like feeling weak at times, but he was perfectly fine if she was the one who caused it.

He sat down beside Nicky and listened to her question. He pulled her close to him in a loving embrace. "I know, I miss him too..." Hannibal said quietly as she hid her face against him. He let his hands run down her body in a loving gesture as he held her close. He kissed her skin gently and let his fingers toy with her hair. He loved her more then anything.

[Zoey]

She looked at him smiling weakly nodding. Of course she knew that Chad wouldnever hurt her. That was purposturous! She sighed and kissed his neck gently as he sat beside her looking at him in amazement. He cared for her so much and she wished she could show him how much she cared..but it was not humanly possible. She grinned a soft laugh leaving her as well. The doctors probably had warned him. She was not going to have to get him to go to the hospital again. No way. Not in her liftetime. She frowned looking down as he held ehr tighter saying just because he loved everything about her does not mean she did. Her eyes looked away from him and she sighed I don't like alot about me but the scar i deserve. She whispered.

Her stomach lit on fire from his touch and she wished she could disobey the doctor just this once. Oh well, soon they could do waht they wanted. She smiled as he kissed her back with as much enthusiasm as she had implied on him. So he did still hace some fire in him. She frowned as he pulled back and she went to kiss him again when he explained that it was alright. She nodded trying to lean in and kiss him when he pulled back digging in his pocket. Her eyes widened as he said this would prove he would never stop loving her. A small red velvet box was placed on her leg and she looked at him Chad? She said in a shaky voice picking it up almost dropping it her hands where shaking so much. She opened it and a gorgeous diamond ring was inside teasing at her. Oh..my...god.. She said putting a hand to her mouth Chad..I..I..God Damnit Man i love you! She pushed him down kissing him, though not pushing him hard enough to break the sitches. She rained kisses on his face repeating the word yes over and over again as she could not wipe the smile on her face. He wanetd to marry her! She could scream in hapiness. The only thing that itched at the back of her mind was thinking how Ian would react. But it was soon skipped as thouhts of marriage entered her mind Chad..i love you.

She laugehd slightly at his joke hugginghim close. I think alot of us do..but not all. She snuggled into him more as he held her close. She moved sitting on the bed with him sighing dropping her head looking down as he answered her question. He missed him along with everyone else in his family. His life was a plan he followed. He woke up, listened to music, walked Lucky, listened to music, ate in his room and went to bed. She felt his hands rub along her body as he kissed her neck. A small shiver of pleasure ran up her as he did this and toyed with her hair but she was to upset to go any furrther. Her ahdns rested on his as she did not make eye contact with him I think its effecting Becky most though, and when Chad was in the hospital she lost 5 pounds. Did you see the scar she had? She won't tell me what happened.. Her words where cut off as she held her breath to hold in tears. She was not breaking her promise to herself..

[Hannibal Casry]

He wanted to cry when she kissed his neck. The more time he was with her the more chances there were for him to wish he could disobey the doctors. Rules are meant to be broken right? Maybe this one time he could... No. He had to follow them this time, because if he didn't it meant more time in the hospital. He smiled though, as the soft laugh escaped her vocals. Yeah, she probably realized the doctors had warned him too. He was a pretty young male, and active at that. They had warned him to be careful of all major activity, sex and working out being at the top of their list of restrictions. It made him sad, but a smirk crossed his mind as he thought of the make up sex she owed him. That would be fun.

The smile was pulled from his face as he seen the frown come across hers. He couldn't find her eyes because she hid them from him, and sighed heavily. A gentle hand rested on her cheek for a moment, and he pulled her back to look at him. "Don't even say that about yourself... You didn't deserve it. You were doing what was best; trying to help your brother. When you got that scar it was unavoidable, and you didn't deserve it in the least... If you insult yourself like that again, I'm going to have to punish you... I'm not telling how, but it will be brutal. I promise." he kissed her lips and smiled softly. His eyes showing that he could never do anything to harm her. Yes he could be brutal and violent, but not toward her.

He laughed as she kept trying to kiss him, but she kept trying to pull away. It amused him slightly, but her expression when she spoke in that shaken voice and opened the box was priceless. She covered her mouth with her hand as she breathed out the words of shock that everyone used on occasion. He watched her carefully, not saying a word the whole time as she then turned to look at him. She spoke his name and stuttered a bit, then state the complete obvious and pushed him down, kissing him. Oh god... See what she did to him? This is what he had to deal with. Her mouth touching his skin and causing his body to swell with emotions. The kisses didn't stop coming and he couldn't get a word in edge wise, but to be truthful, he didn't really care. He was completely happy. Finally she stopped, to get in a few words that caused a smile to stretch the male's features. "I love you too, and I won't ever stop loving you." he said, pulling her close to him so he didn't stretch out too far to hold onto her.

Her hands rested on his and he rested his head on her shoulder, taking the hint. He'd been trying to calm her a bit, not ease her into anything. He knew she was too upset for that, as was he. He wasn't in the mood for that because he was thinking about Ian and Becky. He didn't do anything with the family, and the two that had been so close at one point had drifted away so far that he didn't even talk to her anymore. Hell, Ian didn't even talk to Hannibal anymore and they used to talk a lot, constantly even. They had the best of times together and Hannibal missed it dearly. His fingers traced small, invisible designs on her skin even though her hands rested on top of his. It was simply a comforting, and calming gesture of Hannibal's. He liked being close to her, and that distracted him from how bad off Ian was.

"I don't think she cut herself if that's what you're implying. I do believe it was there the night Chad went to the hospital..." he said quietly, recalling the night. It had been rough having Ian back home. He'd been so out of it, that it made Hannibal want to throw him against a wall and just scream at him. He didn't know how he could do those drugs. Yeah, looking back on Hannibal's past he smoked a lot of pot, but he also had the courage to quit for the people that had loved him. He'd gone to rehab twice, to try and quit, and now he did. He still smoked cigarettes, but that was not near as bad as doing coke and drinking. A heavy sigh left his vocals as hid the tears that lurked within his dark eyes. He missed the son they used to have, that son that loved his sister and spent time with his family. They all used to get along so well and now days were like this quite often. Becky stayed with Chad, Ian locked himself in his room with the dog and the music, and Hannibal stayed with Nicky, talking about their children and trying not to break into tears.

He didn't say anything more as he opened up his eyes to see Ian looking at them from the doorway. Hannibal blinked a few times, almost as if he wasn't sure that Ian was really there. After seeing that he didn't move lips parted to allow the male to speak as he held his wife close, his hands having become still. "Do you need something?" Hannibal asked, his voice was soft and gentle as he rested his mouth on Nicky's shoulder. Keeping his lips tightly shut and eyes firmly fixed on their son.

Lips parted as though the young male was going to speak, but he shook his head slightly, as though he was afraid to say anything. Dark brown eyes fell to the floor and he turned away from the sight of his parents. He didn't know if he wanted to say anything just yet. A little more time and perhaps he would. He hadn't really decided yet. He walked back in his room and closed the door.

The door that was different then everyone else for it was almost covered in caution tape, and the spots that did not read caution, or police line do not cross, were painted red. No one realized it, but for every time he'd gotten hurt by those fucking men that kidnapped them he'd put up a line of the tape. No one realized the pattern after all these years of their suffering, and so his door remained a mystery to the eyes of his family. They just knew that every once in a while he taped up a new piece and added a bit more red paint.

He left the door unlocked for once in a very long time and walked into the dark room. The room that had once had coke stashed in several places and rolls of money stashed away for the next time he went to buy. His room was still a horrifying disaster like it always was, but it had been cleaned of drugs and alcohol. All that was in here were his pain pills from when he'd broken his leg skiing last year and there was only one pill in there container. He didn't do drugs anymore, and had been clean for almost three months now, two more days to go until it was exactly three months, but he wasn't ready to tell everyone. He didn't want them to swarm in with whatever they may do. He doubted it would be congratulations or anything.

He lay back on the black sheets and stretched his six foot five inch tall body out on the bed. Yes, he'd out grown Hannibal by three inches but no one really realized he was taller then the father because he stayed hidden in his room so often. He was like a ghost that wandered through the house. Whenever he left the sanctuary that was his room everyone else was in theirs. He ate in here, he slept in here, he didn't have too many friends in here anymore, but he stayed in here quite often. He lay on the bed now, knowing that he'd left the door unlocked. When he went out, no one knew where he went, other then that he'd be back in an hour and a half. Partially he'd been going to counseling and partially he went out jogging. When he didn't spend his hard earned money on drugs it gave him a chance to do other things.


comments;; whoa! Lynnie had muse... lol 1,433 words baby. (.^_^.)

[Zoey]

Becky smiled at him as he pulled her close. He really loved her. More than anything. She looked at her shoulder sighing. It was unavoidable though. If she wuld have not turned her back the elder woul not have pikced her up and thrown her down cutting her with a blade. She ran her hands gently up his chest Why where you screaming so much? What did they do to you its bugging me. She said softly looking at the ring in the box. She wanted him to put it on her finger. Then it proved to her he wanted to be with only her. Not some random girl or some girl before her. Her. she saw the lust on his face along with regret and could nto hide a smirk. The docotr said no and she kenw Chad was going to make her make up for it..not sayinf she was complaining.

A velvet laugh left her again Punish me huh? When? She purred nuzzling his neck but stopped looking over as Ian walked by leaving his door...open. Her frown appeared again and she looked at Chad Do you tihnk he is gettting better? She whispered getting up out of his arms walking halfway across her room looking at him. He was jsut sitting on his bed. He looekd thinner and she hated herself for not getting enough courage to go talk to him..that was if Chad let her. He might not after what happened last time she talked to him, but she wanted to go anyway. Running a hand through her hair she looked at his door. still trying to figure it out she walked to the doorwy of her room then looekd at Chad [b stay here.[/b] With that she walked across the hall.

She knocked on his door looking at him for a second. He looked..great in fact. Slowly she walked in smiling at Lucky Hey boy.. She murmered and pated his head. He was getting huge. Becky walked over to his bed sitting at the foot of it Hi Ian. She said tring to muster a smile. If only he would talk to her. She looked at the ring on her hand then at him I just....thanks for getting us out of there. Wors got stuck in her throat. She wanted to shake him and tell him she still loved him but hurt and fear of his rejection paused those words and actions. Sighing she touched his arm Im proud your my brother. she whispered then got up off of his bed as he was raelly hard to talk to. What else could she say? Should she jsut leave?[/color]

Nicky smiled weakly as he traced invisible desgins on her skin. He always did that to make her feel better. And it always worked. She nodded kissing his hands I know that she dind't cut herself..its just something bad happened to them all and i want to know about it. She said sighing resting her head ontop of his. That was when Ian changed again. He walked in and went to his room while Becky crashed onto the floor in exhaustion. None of the three would peep a word. Maybe she could talk to Chad. They were 19 tomorrow. wow. Had it been that long? Sighing she kised his lips gently I don't even have anything planned for the birthday. She admitted sadly. With all the worry she had not even a cake. No presents...graet..

Suddenly Hannibals eyes shot up and she frowned turing her head. Ian was standing in the doorway. She smiled at him hoping he was fianlyl going to say soemthing. He looked so much better and she felt awful for not noticing it. His eyes had no dark circles and he looked more in shape Hey baby. She said weakly as Hannibal asked if he wanted soemthing. She hoped he did. For more than a week she had just wanted to hold her son in her arms again and let him know it was going to be ok. A huge disapointment crossed her face as he did not tlak jsut shook his head and walked off. Nicky raeched for him sighing dropping her head. Its like he does not trust us. She whispered hiding her face in her hands.[/size]

[Hannibal Casry]

comments;; gah, please, stop skipping time so much without warning. you're confusing me. all these guys talk about all this stuff like it happened right before their 18th birthday and now they are turning 19... Ian had only been clean for three months before his 18th birthday and all of sudden it's been more then a year... -hides face and cries- can we please stay at their 18th so that can be his one big thing? then we can skip time.



Dark eyes watched his parents with an almost creepy gaze because he was so calm. Both of them looked on the verge of tears, and he was oddly calm. The male had never been so calm before, but that's because he didn't say anything and didn't interact with anyone. If no one bugged him, he couldn't get angry. That was part of the reason why he didn't talk to anyone this whole three months that he has been working on becoming clean. If he got angry too quickly they'd know he wasn't using the drugs anymore, and he didn't want them to know that yet. He kind of wanted it to be something he could surprise them with since he didn't really want anything for his birthday this year. He gave no reaction as his mother spoke, just shook his head and disappeared into his room like always.

Her hands ran up his chest, over the stitched cuts that were randomly placed on his skin. God that fag grossed him out. He didn't have anything against homosexuals, but the elder dude creeped him out. He was too much into pain and it just went beyond his sane imagination. Chad liked the feel of pain, but he would not go as far as to let someone cut his body for his pleasure, or for their pleasure. No way. That was too much and he merely shuddered at the thought as he looked up at her.
A very deep, crimson colored blood stained his pale features as she asked why he was screaming, and what they did to him. He didn't want her to worry, but he didn't want to admit it either. He kept telling himself that he shouldn’t' be ashamed because it wasn't like he had a choice... but still he felt, dirty. He felt as though he'd cheated on her almost, but still in his mind he knew he hadn't. He hid his eyes from her for a brief moment, and then parted the lids to look into her eyes.
"I'm surprised I haven't gone crazy. It's so long since that all happened... but when that dude dragged me away to give me a lesson, which would have been thirty lashes, he took my hood off and saw that I had no cuts on my back. He called me something crazy like the Forbidden One or something like that and... Umm... He spoke of how everyone had said how great I was... At first I was alright with not having to tell him who I really was... but then he made me... an offer I couldn't refuse, literally. He said an hour with me... and then ten lashes. So he got his hour... and I got the lashes..." he said quietly, his face still glowing a deep red as he broke eye contact with her a long while ago. The words left his mouth in smaller groups as it was hard for him to think about. It embarrassed him greatly, even though he knew Becky would think nothing of it.

"As soon as I get a moment where I can take my time and make the punishment long and slow." he said with a soft smirk, the red still stained his features but lightened a bit as he spoke of something else now, instead of having to recall those horrid memories. The laugh from her made him smile all that much more and he kissed her neck softly as she nuzzled him. The smile was pulled from his lips as she frowned and looked up. He tried to see what she saw, but he was pinned against the bed. He looked back to her as her eyes came to him and she spoke. "I don't know. I see less of him then you do because I can't be here everyday." the male spoke softly as he sat up. She left his arms and walked across the room to look at her brother. He frowned slightly as she walked further away from him then told him to stay here. He got up and stood in the door way. He would stay within her room, that is, as long as she stayed in her brother's room. He wasn't going to let her chase off after him again. Not after that last psycho trip they took.

Ian looked up, and moved his body so he was sitting upright instead lying back on his bed. He didn't say anything as she knocked, just looked at her with his very dark, very calm eyes. He watched her speak and pet the dog that was now nearly fully grown, but still very young and very energetic as puppies were supposed to be. The dog didn't move though, for Ian and he had come back from jogging and that always seemed to drain his energy, for a little while at least. He stayed back, far from the end as she sat down and said hello. He watched her silently as she looked at the ring on her finger. He didn't know when she got that, but it was gorgeous. His eyes looked to her face again as she said thanks for getting them out.

Why did she thank him? He was the one that lead them there... Well, he led Becky there who in turn lead Chad there and got them all in shit loads of trouble. He didn't understand how she could thank him after being the one who got everyone there. It made very little sense to his very clean mind. She then reached out to him and his body grew tense, but muscles restricted and calmed a bit as he let her fingers touch his arm. The words struck him violently, like three hard kicks to the stomach or a shot to his head. Dark eyes showed confusion and misunderstanding, almost as if he thought he had heard her wrong, but he knew he didn't.

After the long three months of silence, lips parted to allow him a chance to speak as before when he stood in the doorway of his parent's room. "Why?" a single word, in very deep, very masculine tones escaped his lips. The tones although deep and full, were extremely quiet and slightly raspy from not speaking in such a long period of time. There was nothing more from him in that moment, but he looked at her with a confused glare. He wanted an explanation from her as to how she could be proud to have him as a brother.

[Zoey]

Becky felt the horror as Chad had told her. She gripped the entrance of her brothers bedroom before she had walked in. That was why he was screaming? Why he begged for help. she bit her lip. Of course she knew why he had done it but it still pained her a bit as well. Ian looked up as she walked in and she smiled again at him as he looked at the ring. He noticied. She thoguht he would be mad but he just looked back at her. Did he not notice it was a weding ring. Maybe that was better. He winced as she touched him and she left her hand there. He had better get used to it. Chad was watching in the doorway and she gave a quick glance. He probably did not want to go on a crazy adventure like last time. She was not going to leave him to brush her teeth in the middle of the night again.

His eyes shot to hers and confusion was clear on them. Did she not hear him? About to repear what she said he spoke. Her heart sunk and she moved closer as he asked why. Was it not obvious? Ian, your the most amazing brother in the world. I do not care if you throw me against the wall or cur me with knifes. I don't care how you act and i don't care if you do drugs. I just want you to be happy because if your happy i'm happy. Im proud you are always there for me even when im the one always making mistakes... She took his hands fiddling with them her eyes brimming with tears I miss you so much though...we used to talk and hang out all the time.

She did not care. As long as he was happy and this was how he wanted to live his life she would let him. Her hands let go of his so she did not make him uncomfortable. If he wanted to be alone she would let him. Slowly Becky got off his bed running a hand over her eyes to wipe away the tears that wanted to come. The LAST thing she wanted to do was cry in front of her brother. Chad's eyes seemed to burn in the back of her head so she mustereed up a fake smile Happy birthday twin. She stepped forward but then went back. He probably would shove a hug back into her face. She rembered last year when he was sitting judging what dress looked best for the brithday, and the wrecked cake...that was the night this shit started...

[Hannibal Casry]

Again he tensed as she moved closer and kept her hand on him. He relaxed his body again, but kept his eyes one her. He didn't say anything to her, just listened to her in silence. His dark brown eyes were clear and not dilated. He winced as she said that he was the most amazing brother in the world. Ian tightened his fingers into fists as he heard of all his flaws that she didn't care about. That was horrible that he'd done all those things at some point. He closed his eyes for a bit and calmed himself again, letting his hands relax and taking a few deep breaths as she spoke still. A nice trick his counselor taught him to keep himself calm.

His hands noticeably became still as he held them within hers. His long, slender fingers were cold in her warm hands. He watched with calm eyes as the tears threatened to fall from her pools. His sister cried a lot, and he was kind of surprised that she was able to hold in the tears this time. He drew his cold hands back quickly as she let him go. No he wasn't happy like this, but he was doing the best he could to better himself. If stopping the drugs completely meant sealing himself in a lonely igloo in Antarctica he would try it. He wanted to break his addiction more then anything else in the world, because he knew he would feel happy with himself, and once he was happy everyone else would be happy. He hated that he caused them all so much sadness and worry, but it was better that they didn't know just yet.

She stepped closer, and then moved away from him after wiping tears from her eyes. He raised his tall figure from the bed, and without saying a word he stepped closer to her and very hesitantly wrapped his arms around her. At first his touch was hardly even noticeable, but after a moment, the male tightened his grip on her so it was a noticeable hug. A hug that had long been needed and missed. He hadn't gotten this close to anyone in a long time, and it was strange to him, but a very small smile threatened to break his features. He contained the smile and very gently let his hands run down her back into a gentle gesture.

[Zoey]

Ians hands were so cold. She shivered at the feel of him. His eyes were clear. That suprised her. She was not sure of what was going with his life right now. WAs he clean? She hoped so. That was going to be her wish this birthday but she didn't even tell Chad that. These things were better kept to hereslf. She would tell Chad everything else except things she wished and thought about her brother. When she had said he was amazing he winced. Why? He was. He was changing..for his family and peers. How much willpower did he have? She wished she could be as strong as him to quit. God did he not see how truly great he was? She wanted to shake him until he udnerstood what she had been saying theses last three months.

Her eyes jerked up as Ian got off the bed. He walked up to her and she tensed looking at him. His arms wrapped around her and shock was clear on her face. He was..hugging her. She felt uncomfortable at first but then he relaxed and hugged her gently his hands rubbing her back. Becky hid her face in his shoulder tightly wrapping her arms around hsi lean frame I love you Ian. She whisperd as she gripped him tighter her hands not wantign to let go. She had not hugged her brother in so long. It almost seemed like a treat. Like something she had to pay for. But no, he was the one who gave her a hug. Smiling she pulled back regret fully putting a hand on his cheek Thanks Ian. She kissed his cheek and then quickly ran to her room past Chad. She grabbed a wrapped gift.

Running back she went to Ian a bright smile on her face. She had bought him a new CD player for his brithday but was unsure of whether or not to give it to him. Now or never. Becky slowly handed it to him Here..Happy Birthday. She gave it to him and then titled her head a smile still dawning on her lips as she walked out. Grabbing Chads arm she smiled pulling him to the bed Damnit boy i want your stiches healed. She felt amazing. Like she had her brother back. But it was not for sure. He had finally taken a step into her life. Maybe she would get a good reaction from her present. Sighign happily she fell back onto her bed closing her eyes. It was getting dark and she was content enough to sleep..

[Hannibal Casry]

No matter how much you shake this kid it won't help. He's a thick as a brick wall and as stubborn as a mule. It would probably never change either... But now he's working his way to being drug free again, so maybe once he opens himself back up then he'd be more understanding and able to actually grasp the fact that, yes, he is loved very much by his family and they would give a lot to be able to actually see him once in a while instead of just knowing he was hiding away in his room.

At first he’d felt that he made a dumb choice to actually hug her, because she stayed tense like he did when she touched him. He’d relaxed and even for a moment she was still tense. He was ready to back away from her and be sorry for such actions, but that was when she hid her face in his shoulder and wrapped her arms tightly around his thin body. The words escaped her lips, and he hugged her a bit tighter for a moment, letting her know that he’d heard her, but he made no actual verbal response to hers. Her grip was like the hold of death, seeming as though she’d never let go, but for a moment he was comfortable, whether he was holding her or she was holding him. They were close for the moment. Their hug parted then, and she looked at him with a smile, her hand resting on his face. He watched her with dark eyes as she said thanks, kissed his cheek then ran off into her room.

He looked at her with a strange glare as she walked back in, holding the gift with a bright smile on her face. Guilt swept over him for he’d not gotten anything really special for her. He’d been working hard on keeping his mind focused on other things that he’d actually forgotten their birthday. Yeah, that said he’d actually been rather busy. A very light pink flush crossed over his face as he held the gift in his hands and watched as she walked out. Gah! He had no idea what to get her, and tomorrow was it… He shook his head slightly, and still, even though he didn’t get her anything, the curious tick in him made him shake the box a bit; an old habit of his ever since they were little. He would always creep under the Christmas tree and shake the boxes that were his.

He watched her as she ran past him, grabbed a box and then ran out again. God she amazed him. She was the most amazing girl in the world. He watched her as she gave him the gift and then turned away before he opened it. Her hand wrapped tightly around his arm and pulled him to the bed. A smile graced his features as she spoke. “You’re not alone. I would die to have them out right now.” He said as she fell to the bed and closed her eyes a bit. He smiled still and gazed at her angelic features before pulling her close to him. He held her close with his arms wrapped around her and that small, content smile showing on his features. He was happy now that she was happy.

[Zoey]

Ian had shown emotion. She wanetd to point at everyone adn yell ha in their faces. But she was not that immature. Well nto right now anyways. She smiled looking as Ian shook his gift across the hall ans used her long leg to shut the door so she could talk to Chad. He came over and pulled her tiny frame next to his speaking Too bad i like following the rules. She murmered kissing his lips. She had seen the smile on his face as she talked to her brother. She did not know why he was smiling but she hoped it was good, She hoped that maybe he was proud of her but she would never ask him. She played with the ring on fher finger looking at him I love you. Her words were more than a whisper but not much.

She pulled the blankets around them as she saw the moon bright up the midnight sky in her window. Her parnets where sleeping. She hoped Ian liked the gift. She also hoped he did not get her a gift. He already had. He was off drugs. She could tell. His eyes where clear and he was muscular. That was the best present he could have got her. Sighing she shut her eyes as Chad held her safely in his arms. He was so strong and wamr she wanted to give an evil laugh at other girls because it was now official. She ahd him for marriage and no one was going to take that away from her. Her eyes closed and she felt sleepinees start to wash over her. They were not doing angything tonight so might as well get some sleep. Maybe Ian would say more tommorrow. Maybe he would talk to their parents. She did not want to get her hopes up though. It was his life not hers and he was free to run it however he pleased, even if she was not satisfied with it....

[Hannibal Casry]

"Mmm yes. That is too bad... I would say rules are meant to be broken, but I really don't want to go back to the hospital." the male admitted with a laugh as his lips met hers. He watched her as she toyed with the ring that now held a place on her finger. Lips turned upward into a small smile. He was really glad that she was so in love with it. He picked it out a while ago to be completely honest. He's had it for a little over a year and a half. He just, wasn't quite sure of the time to give it to her, and found that tonight was fine with him. He smiled still as the whisper left her parted lips. "And I love you. Don't you ever forget, no matter what happens." he said, bright and happy eyes glimmering in the moonlight.

He snuggled under the warm blankets, how much more comfortable they were then at the hospital. BEsides, he wasn't laying alone now anymore.He stroked her skin gently as her eyes shut to let her angelic features glow calmly in the moonlight as she laid peacefully within his arms, close to his body. His skin was a bit rough with the stitches, but he was warm and comfortable as he held her close.

Ian set his gift on the floor for a moment, and made the bed that he had messed up. He set the gift then on top of the sheets and opened the door to his closet. A few things fell and nearly conked him on the head, but his arms covered him and he nearly jumped backwards. He avoided the falling junk and searched for the small stash of decorations he had in here. Afer about five minutes of searching he pulled them out and crept down stairs. His parents were sleeping, and Becky looked way to comfortable to move, or at least she better not move.

He moved down the stairs and started to decorate for their birthday, seeing as their parents didn't. He pulled a container of frosting from the cabinet, as well as Becky's favorite cake mix he prepared the cake and let it cook while he went to decoration. He blew up balloons, hung banners and threw streamers. All very quietly of course.